I know it has been quite some time since I have posted. Life is crazy and to be honest I have been struggling through it lately, literally. I have had a hard battle with anxiety lately but trusting in my God is getting me through it. I have even had a couple panic attacks which is very scary. I had one at church one night but have tried to keep going on. I have been blessed with people encouraging me and lifting me up in prayer. Yes, I went to the doctor but if you know me, I refuse to take any kind of medication for this. I will take a little something for a panic attack but just on rare occasion. I am not against medication, I just do not like anything in my body that I do not know what it could do to me. I tend to be more sensitive than some so I am just trying to focus on the positive and try not to worry so much (very hard for me). I am also trying to get more exercise. Right now I need to go do Zumba on the Wii but I am too tired tonight. Michael worked all weekend and he is gone tonight skiing at Beech Mountain with his platoon from work so I have been a single mom for the last 4 nights and I am pooped.
I have to admit, the trial with the anxiety has not been all bad. God has revealed so much to me lately about myself. He has revealed some hard feelings that I have been harboring in my heart towards others and He has showed me that He is in control and that I MUST depend on Him. God is so good and I am thankful for a sweet, supportive husband and wonderful children that love me even when I feel like I am going crazy sometimes. I know that this too shall pass and I will be better for it.
Well, I will try to keep up a little better on this blog. I do have to tell you something funny. M, E and myself were watching the news about the upcoming election and E was asking who I would vote for and M spoke up and said he was voting for Billy Graham!! I think he has a good idea, what do you think?
Hope you have a great week!
