The title says it all. I am feeling overwhelmed lately. M had strep last week, E, a sinus infection. I feel crummy myself right now. Had to come home early from work today. E was home with upset stomach. Do you ever feel like it all hits at one time?
Then, I found out 2 weeks ago that my brother & his wife split and I found out another member of our family's marriage has fallen apart also. My heart breaks for everyone. I feel at times I take for granted my own marriage and when I hear things like this, it really makes me re-examine things. I feel like with our schedules we never see each other which is really hard but it makes us have to work even harder to find time for each other. The past couple weekends when he has been off, we have actually went out to dinner with other couples which has been really nice.
I think though when I am feeling overwhelmed, discouraged and sad, it makes me want to seek the Lord even more. I must admit. I fail miserably everyday. I cannot be the person I want to be but most importantly who God wants me to be if I neglect my relationship with Him. I will say, I struggle at times in my relationship. Lately, I feel bombarded by the enemy but I know that I have to focus on Him & not myself. I struggle putting things in His hands. You would think I would know by now that He has things under control but my human nature tries to control things I have no control over. Can anyone relate?
My prayers for right now are for everyone to start feeling better. I pray that my brother will find God through this situation. The kids pray for him every night, that he will come to Jesus. I pray for my other family member who is going through a very tragic split. I pray that I will stop depending on others & myself and start trusting the Lord to handle things. My prayer is that the Lord will equip me to show more love to others. I am selfish, I admit it. My prayer for this year is that I show more love to people around me.